Sorry for my delayed response.. I have been in the middle of a BAD FLARE for the last 2 weeks, all viruses flaring and unable to hardly do anything except sleep and barely get my food to eat in between 15-18 hour blurs... losing track of what day it is let alone what time of day.
The other day since it has been dark during the daytime recently, I also most gave Thanks thinking I was waking up during the day and was about to call a friend so I could actually HEAR a Human Voice~ TV and radio do NOT count...as there is no REAL PERSONAL INTERACTION THERE~
Only to find out that it was NOT 10 after 8 in the evening.. but *Sigh* it was actually 20 minutes before 2am~ Oh well.. there went another day...
My internet connection is SO slow that I can barely do anything while I am awake.. and doing this blog will use up my ENTIRE TIME of being awake tonight..
Never the less, I give Thanks that I HAVE an internet connection as slow as it is..
(while I write the Egyptians have had their internet connect CUT-OFF)
Life and our attachments to physical things is SO Ephemeral..
Please Be Appreciative for what you DO Have and acknowledge the difference between what we NEED and what we like,
and what is Necessary for Life and what is an added blessing..
Honestly, it is rather bizarre living in the Center of a HUGE City, yet feeling and existing,
like I am living the life of a hermit in the mountains.. as only getting new food ONCE
every 3 months makes it feel like that.. and makes getting anything FRESH a Real Treat and Rare.. Life goes on outside of my existence...
I hear about it on the news and from the occasional friend that does call..
When conscious, I do try to be an advocate for those with my illnesses, but all the while.. knowing I do NOT have the family, or money or medical coverage or back up system, let alone energy to allow me to take advantage of any of the new clinical trials that may be coming out soon...that might be able to stop this illness in its tracts..
ALERT: Our society and health delivery system "Does NOT Deliver"....
They would rather HIDE the fact of our existence, drop us OFF the unemployment rolls so we are NOT counted. The Health CARE System does NOT Care about YOUR Health. NOTHING has changed since Pres. Obama's mother was dying and fighting the insurance companies on the phone on her death-bed. Today we have not only been ignored, but the HEAD Governmental Agency of numerous countries is denying that our illness EXISTS.
Science is about ready to catch up with the Truth, but the "Flat-Earthers" are STILL in DENIAL of the existence of the 3rd Human Retrovirus and the part it plays undermining our immune systems allowing us to be assaulted by many other Diseases and cancers attacking not only us, but also our descendants..
"It IS Showing UP" Not only in our Medical Records but also in our DNA.
I am NOT a retrovirologist, but I did work in a hospital for 17 years and have studied enough medical modalities and been a student of Life, Long Enough to know that this bugger is REAL and MILLIONS *ARE* being infected and GENERATIONS ARE/WILL BE INFECTED and EFFECTED.
The Greedy are INDEED killing us and
until one of THEM is infected NOTHING will be taken Seriously~ Period.
UNTIL somone IN Power *gets it* and I do
NOT mean Simply understanding it... will Anything Be DONE.
The media has been told "Hands-OFF," and
you Wonder WHY the sick MUST Blog ???
I am about to make my Last Will and Testament and will be donating the sum of what little I have left to the Whittemore Peterson Institute so they can continue their SERIOUS Research into the Cause and Treatment of this Disease and the Millions it is Effecting ALL over the World. Bless the Whittemores, Dr. Peterson, and Dr Judy Mikovits and ALL who Help them. Please do NOT forget Dr Cheney and others who have who have also donated their LIVES to Helping us and continuing their Research. Bless those who donate to continue the research by those who are doing this MOST IMPORTANT work. Bless the ONLY REAL Investigative Reporter, from the Wall Street Journal Health Blog, to date, that has the Integrity to cover the TRUTH of this PANDEMIC, Amy Dockser-Marcus, for she knows what it is like to be the victim of a ignored disease.
It has taken my computer over an hour already just to write this amount down...
I am tired and weak and must eat something NOW before I sleep my next 15 hours....
Thank You ~CDC and NHS~ for the MANY DEATHS that YES~ WILL BE as a Direct Result of YOUR Negligence over the last 25 years.. Yes, many others have been complicit with you, BUT had YOU had ANY INTEGRITY at all... you Literally Could HAVE changed the course of History, but you chose NOT TO DO SO...
At this point, I personally blame Dr. Reeves, Dr. Strauss, and Dr. Fauci in the USA, and Dr. Wessely and ALL of his collaborators in the UK for undermining any REAL Research that was being done.. The Lightening Process is just another form of CBT that does NOT cure ANY Retrovirus ~ PERIOD.
For those still living~ PLEASE STOP arguing about the fricken NAME and SUPPORT the REAL Work of RESEARCH about the Disease and finding a CURE or a Way to HALT it's Progress...
The DEAD do NOT care by what name you call their illness... Those holding up the Real Research do NOT care HOW Many things we Test Positive for.. NOR how many are sick or how many lives/families are being DESTROYED, ~ NOR how much $ this is costing ANY of OUR ECONOMIES Worldwide...
For just ONE of my illnesses, ME/CFS, the economic cost to the USA is $20 Billion a year, yet there is less than $10 million a year spent in Research for this illness...
I will leave you now with just a few of the blogs written for this year's~
XMRV Bloggerama. If you know of any that I missed, please add them in the comments section, OK, and I will add them to my list and to the bloggers list. Thank You.
I DO have links for most of these bloggers in the column on the Right-side of this blog. Please NOTE, that these bloggers are from AROUND the world and come from ALL walks (beds) of Life...
Participating Blogs:
Many of these are novice bloggers, some are veterans and others are written by partners of sufferers. Everyone of these writers needs to be congratulated for using up what precious energy they have to help raise awareness for you and me. (per XMRV Bloggerama Organizer)
~The Relationship of XMRV to CFS and M.E.
http://slightlyalive.blogspot.com/2011/01/relationship-of-xmrv-to-cfs-and-me.html
~They Will Hear Our Whisper
~XMRV-It's All Just Coincidence
~Treating XMRV
http://treatingxmrv.blogspot.com/2011/01/back-to-work.html ~The XMRV Hunt and Me
http://itsonlymeitsnotmymind.blogspot.com/2011/01/xmrv-hunt-and-me.html
~XMRV: Frequently asked questions
http://cinderbridge.blogspot.com/2011/01/xmrv-frequently-asked-questions.html
~Wazzup XMRV!
http://www.pugilator.com/awareness/wazzup-xmrv/
~XMRV: Why Biased Reporting Belongs on the Slush Pile
http://dancingwiththesandman.blogspot.com/2011/01/xmrv-why-biased-reporting-belongs-on.html#more
~Questions +Answers: Alphabet Soup
http://nopostergirl.com/2011/01/22/questions-answers-alphabet-soup/
~ME/CFS XMRV Bloggerama day
http://www.johnallsopp.co.uk/blogViewer.php?blog=1988
~WE HAVEN'T HEARD THE LAST OF XMRV-ME/CFS-LYME DISEASE
http://lookingatlyme.blogspot.com/2011/01/we-havent-heard-last-of-xmrv-mecfs-lyme.html
~XMRV, brought light/hope to CFS/ME Patients!
http://1lito.blogspot.com/2011/01/xmrv-brought-lighthope-to-cfsme.html
~The Story of My CFIDS
http://wecanstillblog.blogspot.com/2011/01/story-of-my-cfids.html
~Conscientization
http://glamsticks.wordpress.com/2011/01/20/conscientization/
~ME/CFS XMRV Bloggerama day
http://www.johnallsopp.co.uk/blogViewer.php?blog=1988
~The Relationship of XMRV to CFS and M.E.
http://slightlyalive.blogspot.com/2011/01/relationship-of-xmrv-to-cfs-and-me.html
~WE HAVEN'T HEARD THE LAST OF XMRV-ME/CFS-LYME DISEASE
http://lookingatlyme.blogspot.com/2011/01/we-havent-heard-last-of-xmrv-mecfs-lyme.html
~XMRV, brought light/hope to CFS/ME Patients!
http://1lito.blogspot.com/2011/01/xmrv-brought-lighthope-to-cfsme.html
~XMRV and Hope
http://frommetoxmrv.blogspot.com/2011/01/xmrv-and-hope.html
~XMRV - Do You Have It?
http://2hope4acure.blogspot.com/2011/01/xmrv-do-you-have-it.html
~XMRV linked to ME/CFS
http://givenmeathorn.blogspot.com/2011/01/xmrv-linked-to-mecfs.html
~XMRV Bloggerama Day
http://xmrvandme.wordpress.com/2011/01/18/xmrvbloggerama/
~XMRV in ME/CFS: New Facts and Findings
http://livewithcfs.blogspot.com/2011/01/xmrv-in-mecfs-new-facts-and-findings.html
~XMRV and M.E./C.F.S.: summary and links
http://nighearain.wordpress.com/2011/01/20/xmrv-and-m-e/
~XMRV and Hope
http://frommetoxmrv.blogspot.com/2011/01/xmrv-and-hope.html
~XMRV - Do You Have It?
http://2hope4acure.blogspot.com/2011/01/xmrv-do-you-have-it.html
~XMRV linked to ME/CFS
http://givenmeathorn.blogspot.com/2011/01/xmrv-linked-to-mecfs.html
~XMRV Bloggerama Day
http://xmrvandme.wordpress.com/2011/01/18/xmrvbloggerama/
~Learning to Live With CFS: XMRV in ME/CFS: New Facts and Findings
http://livewithcfs.blogspot.com/2011/01/xmrv-in-mecfs-new-facts-and-findings.html
~Whittemore Peterson Institute Leads ME/CFS Research
http://mecfsfromme.blogspot.com/
~XMRV – British Science Never Looked So Poor....
http://www.cfstheresistance.com/british-science-never-looked-so-poor.php
~XMRV in ME/CFS: New Facts and Findings
http://livewithcfs.blogspot.com/2011/01/xmrv-in-mecfs-new-facts-and-findings.html
~XMRV and M.E./C.F.S.: summary and links
http://nighearain.wordpress.com/2011/01/20/xmrv-and-m-e/
~ME/CFS has MS and AIDS-like Clinical
http://lookingatlyme.blogspot.com/2011/01/mecfs-has-ms-and-aids-like-clinical.html~Living With Chronic Fatigue Syndrome:
http://livingwithchronicfatiguesyndrome.wordpress.com/2011/01/29/reflective-travails/~CFS: Patient Advocate
http://cfspatientadvocate.blogspot.com/2011/01/invest-in-me.html~CFS Central:
http://www.cfscentral.com/2011/01/go-ahead-make-my-day.html
~CFS'nGay:
http://cfsngay.blogspot.com/2011/01/art-4-xmrv.html~CFS Chronicles:
http://cfschronicles.blogspot.com/some related articles of Interest:
~Even Before XMRV (10/2009) *the WHY* of the CDC obfuscation was Obvious:
http://www.oslersweb.com/work4.htm~Nice Guidelines Blog:
http://niceguidelines.blogspot.com/2011/01/must-read-if-you-are-xmrv-positive.html~Crystal structure of XMRV protease differs from the structures of other retropepsins:
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Please BLAME *ANY ERRORS* in the blog on ALL of my Viruses and Retroviruses that are Currently Flaring... They Thank you...
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If you missed your chance to blog for XMRV Have NO Fear~ You CAN still participate :-)
ON the participating blogs above - "if you would visit each one in turn and leave a comment, this will help raise the blog's profile on *Google,* which in turn will increase its public visibility."
"There is also another way you can help. By entering Google http://www.google.com/ and typing XMRV in the search window you will be presented with the top ranking XMRV articles. Find the ones that have published positive and accurate information and leave a comment. In future, you might want to consider not leaving a comment when you read a negative 'blog' article. Visiting and commenting on some of the obvious attention-seeking blogs (ie. those that bate sufferers with a view to increasing hits), only raises their profile, which we want to avoid. Commenting on online news media sites is a good thing, especially if the information they provide is inaccurate. It's is a good opportunity to put the record straight and your comment is likely to be read by a larger audience."
~per: http://dancingwiththesandman.blogspot.com/2011/01/xmrv-bloggerama-how-can-you-help.html
~per: http://dancingwiththesandman.blogspot.com/2011/01/xmrv-bloggerama-how-can-you-help.html
It has been 7 hours so far just creating this much~ non-stop,
except for computer interruptions.. NOT on my part.
I have NOT eaten YET and am exhausted now..
How are we to survive ???
PLEASE Show your Support for ALL of the Many Hours that these bloggers have put into their blogs and Follow them as a way of showing Thanx ~ KNOWING that at least someone is reading your blog makes it feel worth all of the energy and effort it took to write it.
A reminder of decades past~ that are still with us sadly...
In 1980's thru the 1990's HIV has been argued as a "smoking gun."
So we are facing what HIV/HTLV-III patients went threw in 1980-mid 1990's
It is well documented in "And the Band Played on"~ and guess what....
So we are facing what HIV/HTLV-III patients went threw in 1980-mid 1990's
It is well documented in "And the Band Played on"~ and guess what....
THE BAND IS STILL PLAYING ... and sadly it is playing a dirge to the deaf.
Please NOTE that sadly our illness surpassed the numbers in this movie LONG AGO~
We are about to have *Another Workshop/Conference*
Banning ME/CFS patients from Donating blood will NOT stop XMRV from being IN the Public Blood Supply.. NOT when there is ALREADY in the USA alone... an estimated 10-20 million asymptomatic XMRV carriers are CURRENTLY spreading it and donating blood.
And that is ONLY from ONE of the illnesses that seem to be linked to this retrovirus. There are many other illnesses also linked and so far all of those with Lyme disease tested have shown Positive results for XMRV+
Currently there has been shown a link to not only ME/CFS, but also and aggressive form of Prostate Cancer, Autism, Lymphoma, Lyme Disease, Atypical MS, GWI, and even Breast Cancer.
We are about to have *Another Workshop/Conference*
Do you REALLY think that any Progress will be made ?
And that is ONLY from ONE of the illnesses that seem to be linked to this retrovirus. There are many other illnesses also linked and so far all of those with Lyme disease tested have shown Positive results for XMRV+
Currently there has been shown a link to not only ME/CFS, but also and aggressive form of Prostate Cancer, Autism, Lymphoma, Lyme Disease, Atypical MS, GWI, and even Breast Cancer.
~Support the WPI Research NOW.
~Demand that your Government also support Valid XMRV research and treatment NOW.
-Want to Support Your Troops ?
~DEMAND that your Gov't CLEAN/screen the public blood supply NOW.
-WHO do you think has been getting a LOT of the transfusions lately ?
~DEMAND that your Gov't CLEAN/screen the public blood supply NOW.
-WHO do you think has been getting a LOT of the transfusions lately ?
Our blogs will remain LONG after WE are GONE~
Are we crying in the dark ?
Is anyone listening ??ShareThis
I'm listening. I'm sorry you have been so very sick. I agree with most all you say and applaud your activism. Great site and links.
ReplyDeleteI definitely see the analogy to AIDS. With the discovery of MLV-related viruses, this is becoming more and more clear. I appreciate your emphasis on SUPPORT FOR WPI.
Hope to be able to speak to you sometime. In the meantime, take care of yourself and "keep the faith".
Maureen
Well done on writing such a long and heartfelt (and excellent!) post.
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